22 and Brand New

It’s been so long since I’ve sat down and actually had the time to reflect on myself and give my blog some content. I’d say a week in my life as a 22-year-old woman has passed by, but now it’s been two. Manifesting this year of my life is not only life changing but also the start of actually being the person I want to be. Some life advice for anyone reading this and myself would be to just keep on going. I know within the past year of my existence; it was a struggle to get through each day. The challenge of keeping up with school, maintaining relationships with friends and trying to not let loneliness get the best of me. I’ve been honoring myself by embracing the unknown. For someone so young, figuring out what you want to do for the rest of your life is something of a many-layered puzzle. It’s hard. I’m growing to learn that in uncertainty, there is comfort in knowing you are open to endless possibilities.

Three years ago, whenever I started DIBBZONTHAT, I was slowly becoming obsessed with ideas for this blog and what was going on in the fashion industry. It started to consume me and at one point I only thought about what I was going to wear. I couldn’t even believe that I spent so much time caring about every minor detail of my life. During my year and a half hiatus, I realized all the things I had to do in order to be on the way to my dream life. Mark my words because I worked my last ever job in a retail store as a manager at Spirit Halloween last October and I will never be back. Over the past year I have been figuring out what I want to do for my potential career. Emphasis on the fact that I spent so much time just trying to figure out what I’m doing and what I need to do now. This type of mentality is definitely not for everyone; however, it just works best for me. Whenever I have a goal, I overthink all the outcomes in order to figure out what I can do to achieve my dream. Absolutely crazy, I know.

Reflecting on my 21st year of life, this was the year that really made me figure out where to begin. I worked multiple internships and started doing further research on what I was really passionate about and how I can set myself apart from others. I’ve taken a variety of training courses on LinkedIn and currently my profile is popping. Right now, I am currently working for Sally Beauty Holdings in the eCommerce department as an intern. I am enjoying it, certainly learning a lot. I am also working with Lela Orr who is the creative director of Ferrah and I am managing all her Google Analytics. Right now, I enjoy having so much freedom because I do work remotely. I’ve taken advantage of it for sure. This past year I went to over 30 concerts, traveled to 5 different states and went to 4 different music festivals. Sometimes having something to look forward to has really pushed me to keep going and to strive for greater purposes.

My updated goal in life right now is to live each day as if it’s the last. I don’t have any regrets, only haunting buyer’s remorse whenever I think about all the clothes I never purchased. I will be updating the site and started a new journey to post more on the DIBBZONTHAT Instagram page. This is something I am really passionate about and want to share my life journey through fashion and getting through mental health blocks. In the past, I was consumed with things that are not important to the greater future of me and I am pledging to end that cycle and only strive for a better version of myself. Thank you to everyone who has stuck around, this is the start of a new chapter for me and I am ready to share.


Passion for Fashion

I want to commence my blog by sharing the start of my true passion for fashion. So it started when I was younger and my mom bought me my first sewing machine. I would get clothes in my closet and just sew random things on them and have a fashion show for my family. At such a young age, I was in love with being unique by doing something different on my own. As I grew up, I did not have as much free time as I used to so I kind of lost that spark that I had for my true passion. I used to do ballet and I had to sew my pointe shoes but that was pretty much the only sewing I did for awhile. All of this started to change when I switched to a brand new school my sophomore year of high school. I became very involved in the fashion department at my school. I was apart of this club called FCCLA, where I was given the opportunity to compete in different competitions and design my own clothes. I enjoyed this so much and made a few outfits that I am very proud of. When I was in New York, I went to MOOD Fabric Store and got fabric there to create a piece for one of my outfits. My senior year, I decided to challenge myself and took on the task of completing 3 prom dresses. I had some difficulties during this time by having to problem solve on my own and complete this task on my own. It taught me a lot about time management, self compassion and why you should never give up on your dreams. During this time, I also struggled with college and making sure I was making the right choice. Spoiler Alert: I didn’t make the right choice. Anyways we will get into that topic later. I decided to attend Texas Tech for Occupational Therapy but I soon discovered that wasn’t me at all. I discovered so much about myself during my first year that I never knew was even a part of me. I found my true love for fashion and how I can use it to help others love themselves. I will be switching schools in the fall to UNT to focus more on Fashion Merchandising and Digital Retailing, but don’t worry I will get into all of that later. However, I am glad I had the experience of coming to Tech to have time to myself and I was not held back by anyone and I was my true, genuine self. This year in college allowed me to start being, I guess you could say I was adventurous with my style. I met my best friends, Kennedy and Emma, they really brought out the side of me that was hidden for so long. I began to dress how I wanted and did not care about what people thought and this really helped me to grow in my self confidence and grow to love myself again. I love to hear people complement my outfits and that gave me an extra boost of confidence. I actually dress up for class instead of wearing a t-shirt and shorts like every other sorority girl. There would be somedays that my outfits would be “over the top” for a casual event, but I really learned to not care about people’s opinions. I remember one time I was at an obnoxious frat party (sorry not sorry to anyone reading this who actually likes frat guys) this guy told me that I was literally too tall to be wearing platforms with my outfit. So you know what I did right after that, wore platforms everyday. Sometimes people tend to think that what you wear and what you’re apart of are solely all you are. But, for someone like me I don’t let anything define me. I express myself through fashion and that is the only way that I will let anyone every judge me. It is so important to me to be free and do whatever makes YOU happy. I joined this app called 21buttons and I post on it almost everyday my outfits and it has given me the motivation to keep dressing for MYSELF everyday. Sometimes my friends get so mad at me for always making them take pictures of me but in the end they’re seriously always there for me no matter what. I know this might be insane but I feel that fashion has really saved my life and made me become a more confident version of myself who lives everyday just to make ME happy instead of trying to please everyone.


The Introduction of a New Beginning

Hi kitties! I just want to introduce myself before you start to know everything about my upcoming life. So, I am in college right now about to finish my first year. I am a member of Kappa Delta Sorority and I am a strong advocate for Girl Power and Equality. My favorite type of food is Indian and Chinese. I am listening to music all the time and I feel off-balanced if I’m not. My all-time favorite music is from the 70s. My parents really introduced me to the greatest songs and that’s the main reason why I listen to old music more than today’s hits. I spend my free time reading Vogue and I love to seek inspiration from influencers for outfit ideas and upcoming trends. I am probably the quirkiest person ever and you’ll see soon that I am full of tragically embarrassing stories. This blog is mainly me talking about challenges that I’m going through and how to overcome all the negativity as well as my passion for fashion and how I use it to express myself freely. I’m so excited to share my life and I hope someone out there will benefit from my story.

Health is Wealth

I’m back. Sorry it has definitely been so long since I’ve posted and talked about what’s actually going on in my life. Just a warning, I am getting really personal and going in depth about the stuff happening inside my body. After doing weeks of extensive research I feel like I have a much better understanding of my diagnosis and I want to share my story to maybe help some ladies going through the same thing. 

This situation has been going on for a while now, but only recently has it started actually affecting me negatively. I was recently diagnosed with PCOS, which is polycystic ovary syndrome. For the past two months I have been dealing with irregular periods and abnormally heavy cycles. At one point, I was on my period for 4 weeks straight. This is really odd for me because I have been on birth control since I was 16. I’ve always struggled having completely messed up ovaries. The day before my 16th birthday party, I was rushed to the hospital because there was something seriously wrong with my right ovary and everyone thought I ruptured my appendix. I wish that was the case, but unfortunately, I had a huge cyst on my ovary that ruptured. It was too much for my body to clean on its own, so I had to get it surgically cleaned out. That was one of the absolute worst pain I have ever felt in my life and it really sucks because I didn’t even know this was a problem until I was randomly in the hospital. I got on birth control not for contraception reasons but just to regulate all these cysts from growing. Regularly I’d go to the gynecologist and get ultrasounds of my ovaries, just to be told that my cysts were still there. 

It goes without thinking that you should regularly get your genitals checked regardless of your gender. There’s no way of knowing a problem is occurring if you’re not proactive about your health. I know from experience that it’s better to catch a problem early on and manage it before it gets out of control. For so many years, I have been dealing with constant pain in my uterus and continuous cyst growth on both my ovaries. I want to talk more about PCOS and what it means. Basically, it just means that I have a ring of cysts around my ovaries that will be there for my life. There is no way to simply get rid of these growths, just have to live through it. This doesn’t mean I absolutely can’t have kids but getting pregnant won’t be the easiest thing. Not that I want to get into this subject, but I have always thought about adopting my kids if I chose to have any. I personally think there are just too many kids in the world already that do not have a good home. 

Throughout the years, I’ve found ways to manage my pain and try my best to control growths. I take my birth control consistently at the same time, so my body is used to that amount of hormones in the morning. I also take iron supplements because I am anemic and recently my periods have been oddly heavy, so I’ve been losing more blood than normal. For anyone who is anemic, you know how annoying it is whenever you stand up and suddenly your lightheaded as heck. I’ve been working on my diet by eating far less chips and more veggies. Especially spinach, asparagus and tomatoes. Another supplement that I started taking is cranberry. After much research, I decided to try it because cranberries are helpful in preventing UTIs and provide an array of antioxidants that help build your immune system while giving you energy too. A weird symptom of PCOS is hair loss and I talked before about me losing hair because of DevaCurl too. Not that I’m bald or anything but I have a lot of hair that falls out whenever I shower. I have been taking a lot of biotin and hair, skin and nail vitamins. It seems that now all my past problems are being solved by prioritizing my health and putting the right stuff in my body. Who would of thought?

Aside from me talking about my trash ovaries, after finding out all this new stuff about my body, I came back to Denton and got really sick. I have no clue what it actually is though, I tested negative for corona and I don’t normally get so sick in the middle of summer. Both my parents were positive for coronavirus and I was just staying with them for weeks whenever I had to go back home to deal with these stupid ovaries. At the start of this week I had a fever, body aches, sore throat and was constantly throwing up for 3 days. For the past 4 days, I haven’t had a fever and I feel a million times better than I did a week ago. I don’t feel one hundred percent back to normal, but I feel okay. My body basically shut down for a few days and I had absolutely no energy to even move. I’m working on strengthening my immune system and have been taking elderberry which is a natural medicine. Even though I was negative for covid, I haven’t been hanging out with my friends or going out anywhere. I want to continue to emphasis the fact that we are all humane and not immune to everything the world throws at us. I’m still encouraging everyone to wear masks when you go out in public and you are consciously protecting other people’s health. 

We are NOT done yet

Hello sweet angels, I hope you all are taking time to go outside and be grateful for the beaming sunshine. Recently, in light of what has been happening in the world I’ve taken a step back from posting on social media and have been absorbing other people’s perspectives. In my opinion, with what we are going through in the world right now I think it is best to revert back from focusing on ourselves and work together as a human race to ensure that everyone feels their life is meaningful. It breaks my heart to see so much destruction, prejudice and pain. Seeing all of these celebrities, influencers and friends posting their support to achieve racial equality is inspiring. In a world where we are so divided, it is magnificent to see how many individuals coming together for justice. Of course, in our generation there are so many people who do things without having any sort of genuine intention and do not actually care about achieving change. Simply, people just mindlessly posting things just to say that they did it, when the reality is some people just want that validation of seeming like a good enough person. 

Without the black community, life would not be the same as it is now. Some of my favorite fashion trends actually originated from the black community. Nail art and having an aesthetic of long, elaborate nails has been a staple trend for the black community. This was a way that women used to express themselves and featured their own personality through their nail art. People used to refer to this nail trend to be “ghetto” since it was not a basic French tip or nude nail that a white woman would typically get. This trend of having intricately designed nails has become more commonly associated with the Kardashians versus the actual black women who made them popular. Sneaker culture is a trend that has become more popularly accepted as a source of style, comfort and personality. In the 70s, the perspective of sneakers changed since they were closely connected to basketball and hip hop. There are so people who did not agree with hip hop and the message that it conveyed, so people assumed everything was bad about it; from the individuals who rapped and wore clothes that supported the music. Without the black community, we would not have any concept of streetwear, whether it be high-end or everyday clothes. This trend originated from individuals wearing their everyday clothes and how black owned brands became increasingly popular in the 90s, which then caused white owned brands like Tommy Hilfiger and Ralph Lauren to enter in this market. One final staple, accessory that everyone has in their closet is a pair of gold hoops or chunky jewelry. In the 60s, wearing large, gold hoops became popular for women of color to wear in streetwear because it was a way for them to embrace their culture. Later on, in the 70s, 80s and 90s, this trend of wearing chunky, gold jewelry was an iconic accessory in streetwear, clubwear and in the hip hop and rap scene. There are many other communities that use gold jewelry as a representation of their culture, but the black community recognizes this a freedom and it gave them a sense of unity in a white-washed world where they have been deemed this accessory choice as being “ghetto.”

Since I am not black, I will never be able to completely understand this community’s everyday fears and how much society has done to intentionally preserve this inhumane inequality they struggle with everyday. However, this doesn’t mean that just because I don’t relate in this situation, I would turn the other way and ignore what is happening in the world. In a way, this can relate to how some men feel whenever a woman gets raped. There are a few, good guys who will stand up for women because it is the right thing to do, even though the situation does not pertain to them. One personal mantra I live by is to always stand up for the right thing even if you’re alone. I literally cannot comprehend the thought of deliberately thinking less of someone just by the color of their skin. 

People are entitled to their opinion, it is their right to have an ideal viewpoint. However, this rule does not apply whenever we are talking about basic human rights that people should just automatically have. In what world, is it ever okay to shoot and murder an innocent black man?? Why do we live in a country where the government is so power-hungry that they do not have any concern for the people they intentionally will not let flourish? This movement has taught me so much about how life really is like, and it opened my eyes up to see a completely different picture. White privilege is a prevalent thing in America and it is concerning to know all the incidents our government has covered up. It bothers me how, there is nothing I can do on my own to change the system and to finally make it fair. There are a lot of documentaries and movies about the history and challenges of this movement for racial equality. Being able to watch this history and hear real people’s stories, saddens me because no human should ever be treated the way people of color are. One documentary I watched on Netflix is 13th, it is an informative timeline of the growth of the prison systems and how the American government is skewing the process to keep black people in jail longer. There has been so many comparisons of the justices that have been served to black and white people and it is nowhere near comparable. People do not even realize this, but the government is purposefully taking away the rights of African Americans, that their ancestors spent centuries fighting for. Not just corrupt cops who murder and arrest innocent people, it’s also the judges who give harsher sentencing to black people versus a white individual. Crime does not have a skin color; each case needs to be focused on the person and not just the color you see outside. 

There are ways that we can create change and establish a more beautified society by continuing to fight for everyone’s justice.

Sustainable Summer Secrets

** Aloe Vera **

Aloe Vera gel is my forever go-to natural product for my skincare, hair and nutrients. I have a few of my own plants and they grow back rapidly after you cut off its leaves so once you buy one plant you’ll have Aloe Vera forever. The gel inside the leaf is what provides the most beneficial ingredients. My favorite way to use Aloe Vera is as a skin moisturizer. In the morning, after I put on my daily sunscreen, I always add a small, dime size amount of Aloe Vera gel to my face. It is rich in vitamin A, C and E, these minerals help prevent breakouts, promote healing and supports healthy cell functions. By using Aloe Vera on your skin, it is a good way to prevent some blemishes from occurring versus healing already formed acne. Somedays whenever my skin is not looking the best and I can see a blemish on the way, I like to mix apple cider vinegar and Aloe Vera together and use it as a toner after I wash my face. I mix about ¼ cup of apple cider vinegar and 2 table spoons of Aloe Vera, then I use a cotton ball to rub the mixture all across my face.

I use Aloe Vera gel for many different ways to help nourish and style my hair. Whenever I notice my hair is looking drier, I add Aloe Vera to my conditioner because it gives my hair additional shine and helps reduce the dandruff that I get whenever my scalp is extra dry. One thing that I tried while trying to find a good curly haircare line, is Aloe Vera. I use this natural gel to help hold my curls together. Some days, whenever my hair is freshly washed, I put the Aloe Vera gel all around my hair and use my fingers to create a few spiral shaped curls. This is a really great product to use that won’t make my hair feel like it’s full of product and it still manages my curls.

Another way that I typically use Aloe Vera is by consuming it for the nutritional value that it holds. By eating this plant, it helps keep your digestive system moving and healthy, along with providing value vitamins and amino acids. I add a scoop to my morning green tea in order to start my day with a good digestive movement or I will add a few cubes in my salad for additional texture. The actual Aloe Vera gel does not have a distinct taste but it reminds me of bitter jelly whenever it is by itself.

** Sunscreen Everywhere**

Here’s a question…Would you rather look 30 whenever you’re 80 or 80 whenever you’re 50?

Just Wondering, if you want to look young forever then all you have to do is moisturize. Literally, that is it. Every single day, you need to apply a generous amount of moisturizer to your face and neck. In the morning, it is important to apply a moisturizer that has at least 30 SPH in order to maximize the amount of UV rays that are blocked. The more exposure you have to the sun’s powerful rays, the more prone you are to having age spots, wrinkles and moles. I try to avoid the sun as much as possible, but whenever I am out, I ensure to always have sunscreen on. At night time, I use a moisturizer that does not contain sunscreen because I am not going outside, and I like to have a nice clean slate whenever I wake up in the morning. Emphasis on moisturizing your neck, because in case you didn’t know your neck ages as well. If you do not moisturize your neck right now, then you may notice that you have little bumps that can resemble chicken skin. By simply moisturizing your neck, you can avoid having rough looking skin and you will prevent further signs of aging on your face and neck.

** Two Piece Fit **

Today, I created a bikini out of an old remnant piece of fabric I found in my sewing cabinet. I was actually planning on creating it yesterday, but my sister needed my help unpacking her entire house, so I wore the fabric as a tie top instead. It was super easy to create this 2-piece set, I left my sewing machine in Denton, so this project required no sewing at all. Initially, I cut the bottom of the bikini to fit like a regular swimsuit bottom that needed to be tied together on each side. Then I cut 7 pieces of fabric that would be long enough to use as straps for the top and bottom. After having the cut strips, I hand sewed four individual strips to each corner of the bottoms in order to secure them on the side. Once the bottoms were done, I cut 2 triangle shapes from the fabric and used safety pins to create a makeshift hem. Later, I inserted a strap through the hem closure in order to create a way to secure the back. Once this strap was attached, using safety pins, I added one strap on each side of the top to create the halter-bikini type closure.

Sustainable Summer Suit

** Smoothies and Salads **

During the summer, I am mainly always in a swimsuit by the pool just hanging out. So, I try to use this time to remain fit and healthy. I noticed that it is hard for me to meet my required goals for my daily fruit and vegetable intake. It is easy to drink a smoothie or eat a salad that has both fruit and vegetables in it. In my smoothies, I like to add in carrots, spinach, kale, beets, celery, cucumbers and tomatoes to my regular fruit smoothies to make sure I get all my veggies as well. Whenever I make myself salads, I typically eat them as a whole meal, so I try to add a variety of fruits and vegetables to fill me up. I like to add strawberries, blueberries, raspberries, coconuts, cherries, and oranges. In my opinion, taking the extra time to add in a mixture of both fruit and veggies is more beneficial for you, since you are going to eat that meal anyways, why not kill two birds with one stone.

Styled by Music

Music is differentiated by a wide variety of genres each song is classified as and you can further distinguish an artist by their own personal stylistic expression. In our society today, it is more acceptable than it was in the past for musicians to use their sense of fashion to embed new ideals in their songs. Music lovers are the people most inspired by their favorite artist’s style since they focus on the little details of the musician’s outfits. Throughout my lifetime, I have been inspired by a multitude of artist’s styles to help influence my own personal style. I want to focus more on the evolution of my own personal style next week, but today I want to share how some of my favorite musicians have impacted my sense of fashion.

For as long as I can remember, music has been a massive part of my life and who I am today. I’ve danced since I was 3 and whenever I was in elementary school, I would spend hours basically everyday coming up with a new dance routine in my room listening to a collective CD collection of miscellaneous 2000s pop stars and iconic Disney legends. As you all know, Miley Cyrus has been one of my idols since I watched the first episode of Hannah Montana. I distinctly remember my elementary style and how we were forced to wear our school uniforms and I would literally cry if my mom made me wear a skirt instead of a skort. Major difference in case you don’t know because one has shorts!! There were a few times I would try to wear makeup to school, which now that I think about it is really dumb. What type of 8-year-old needs to be wearing bright blue eyeshadow to match their school T-shirt?? To this day, I’m not even sure if my parents knew I wore eyeshadow to school somedays because I would literally hide doing it in the backseat before they dropped me off. Simply living the life of a scammer since I was a young bean. 

Middle school was the time in my life where music was one of the most important things to me and I spent so much of my free time on my little iPod touch, searching through YouTube and trying to discover new musicians that I could vibe too. Sixth grade, also known as the era where my life was changed forever. This was the time whenever I became obsessed with One Direction and fell into the coming of age cycle of being obsessed with boybands. At the time, I did not realize how much music really did influence my life, but all of my inspiration and ideals came from new music concepts and artists that I just recently discovered. I finally began to have a deeper desire to learn more about music and to discover old music that was clearly new to me. Sixth grade was also the time where I discovered more about the types of music I like to listen to, I love heavy rock music, but I also love soft indie songs. I feel like I always had a sense of who the Beatles were because my parents and sister listened to them, but once I started focusing on their music and listening to songs I had never heard before my life was changed. Since my life was heavily focused on the Beatles in middle school, I was never super into pop or rap music. I remember clearly not knowing some popular songs, because I didn’t really listen to the radio that much and people thought I was kind of strange for not listening to Katy Perry and blasting John Lennon instead. 

My style in middle school was still heavily influenced by CCISD and the restrictive guidelines of our everyday clothes. This is whenever I became more about accessorizing my outfits since I was not able to fully express myself through my clothes. I wore a variety of bracelets on my wrists with rings on more than 5 fingers. The one and only Stevie Nicks really inspired by boho style and made me want to wear flowy kimonos over my basic outfits, while also making each outfit original to me by adding accessories that made me smile. My family critiques my choice of accessories a lot because I do express myself through the little details of each of my outfits, sometimes I tend to over style a particular fit by adding too much.

Since I listen to a wide range of music, I was influenced by many different decades and did a lot of research on musicians and their clothing choices in that particular era. My earliest memories of 90s music is my dad blasting it throughout my house at 5 am, before he learned and invested in some Bluetooth headphones. I quickly learned the words and my mom would get so mad that I was in 3rd grade knowing all the words to Boyz-N-The-Hood and was dropping the F word as if I knew what it meant. Last year, my style was focused on revitalizing old trends and styling vintage clothing to be more modernized. I wore more casual styles of clothing and had a more street style aesthetic. I was influenced by Tyler the Creator, Brockhampton, and Lizzo. This was the relative beginning years of my college experience, so I was lazy with my style and considered my casual loungewear, considerably cool streetwear. Honestly, I was going through a little bit of a depressive state at this time, so I went back to listening to my 90s grunge playlists that I made in 8th grade. That is when I was on my upmost level of gothic energy, my best friend Zerique and I constantly had Nirvana blasting. I lowkey discovered a few screamo bands and would just lay on the ground listening to crazy rock. This was the major turning point in my life because 90s grunge is one of my favorite genres of music and this was the time whenever I started to discover more bands like the Smashing Pumpkins, Rage Against the Machine, Alice in Chains and Soundgarden.

Currently, I would say my style is the most influenced by 90s and early 2000s right now. Sometimes I also feel like I express my gothic, grunge aesthetic by wearing a variety of chains and industrial style textiles. If you know me, you know that I am always pairing my Doc Martens with any type of outfit. I’ve recently tried to incorporate simpler monochromatic looks with more precise lines and dramatic accessories into my everyday style. I’m seeing a change in my style to grown more into expressing silhouettes and trends from the early 2000s. Whenever I was 7 or 8, I distinctly remember my mom picking outfits out for me and I really did not like some of the styles from then, but now my perspective has changed. I’m wearing more bedazzled things, shoulder bags and slip on mule heels. I feel inspired from singers like Doja Cat, Miley Cyrus and Harry Styles. My style has shifted to be more feminine while also mixing in certain masculine accents. This week in particular, I was completely mesmerized by Harry Style’s Watermelon Sugar music video and all of the summer stylistic details they included. Vibrant shades of yellow and blue along with vintage styled silhouettes such as halter tops and high waisted swim shorts. His songs Watermelon Sugar and Cherry have also helped spark a revolution where fruit has been used as an accessory and a uplifting print on certain garments. The current impact that Harry Styles has on fashion is his ability to master the mix of masculine and feminine styles paired together. He has influenced many men to also be more gender fluid in their everyday outfits which has opened up doors for a new world of androgynous fashion. 

Stylistic Empowerment

Hello sweet baby angels!! I hope everyone is doing splendid and that life is beginning to turn around into some sense of normalcy. Sorry I have not been writing about all the recent updates in my life, but surprisingly recently there has been many much-needed revisions. I left sunshine city Corpus and I am finally back in Denton for a little bit for a quick break from the entirety of my family. This past weekend I moved into my first ever own place, no longer living in the freshman dorms or the Kappa Delta house anymore. After moving out of my house and organizing my life back together, I eventually had enough free time to play with the backend of my website and create a new layout that I hope you all enjoy. I will be writing more now that I am not taking classes at the moment and I will have more free time to express my ideas in the right way. One thing that is new to the site is the addition of weekly updated things such as a chosen trend, along with my music inspirational icons and a dope playlist to inspire your week! Surprise!! I also added the link to my depop store, so you can shop all my favorite looks every day, I got noticed the other day on the explore page and ever since my shop has sort of been blowing up. So, go check out all my newest finds! 

My current feeling is a state of an imperturbable tranquility that no one can diminish. The energy in my house is in absolute order, a total of four Sagittarius under one roof. I am surrounded by consistently positive vibes and at long last I finished setting up my room. For a few weeks, I have been creating multiple concept boards and finding new inspiration to create my tranquil hippie hideout. As I am writing this post, I am drinking my morning green tea, while looking at my Stevie Nicks shrine encompassed by my hanging succulents along with Mac DeMarco playing in the background. So, one could say that peace is restored in the world of ACD. I have been working on maintaining my level of inner peace by journaling every day and writing a quote each day that reminds me of the level I am at in my life. My mom has inspired me to read more books and focus on getting more organizational structure in my life. I started reading Girl, Wash Your Face and I will soon enough give you all a review on how this is improving my ideals and making me a better individual.

            One thing that has been on my mind recently is the revolution fashion will have in the course of the next few weeks. I’ve had so many ideas flowing through my brain, but it has been killing me because I never had a spare second in the day to just sit down and write out all my thoughts. Last week I read an article on Vogue written by the one and only Anna Wintour about this virus changing people’s perspective on fashion and how we will potentially be more adventurous with our style. This has been a major thought in my mind because over this quarantine break, I went through my closet several times and found multiple garments and accessories that I repeated “I forgot about this, I can’t wait for this to be over, so I can go out and wear it” way too many times. So, this sparked the idea in me that there is no need to have anywhere to go if you want to be more expressive with your style. There is an ideal my professors stated that has stuck with me that the older you get, the less experimental you are with your style. In some ways this is true because older people tend to wear the same style of clothing instead of being a part of the up and coming trend setter generation. 

            Part of being a style trend setter is being experimental with your everyday outfits. I focused on wearing a variety of garments together that people typically don’t think of. My go to fashion tip is to experiment with different patterns that you already have in your closet that you would not normally pair together. In my opinion, it is so trendy to mix different prints and styles together, as long as you are following a specific color scheme then your pairing will be aesthetically pleasing. In my cover picture, you can see me mixing a variety of prints from red hearts, red and navy stripes along with a red and gold pizza bag. This is a huge leap from what people consider “every day style” and in 2021, there will be a change in perspective on what items we think are the top level of fashion. Since 2020 has been compromised of utility garments and basic essential lounge wear, we can hope to see people being more expressive with their clothing and modeling an one of a kind piece. This quarantine has taught us a lot as a human race to value what is the most important in our lives and focus on the basic things we need to survive. 2021 will be the year of futuristic and mainly experimental stylistic choices. There will be a wide variety of color choices and a mixture of multiple patterns. Styles from the pasts are coming to make a comeback and we know that no one was afraid to use clothing to inspire their inner beliefs. 

Technological TimeWarp

The future of fashion is something that is changing more now than ever. This quarantine has finally given the fashion industry the break that it needed. For once, the fashion industry is not just in the cycle of mass producing celebrity’s clothing and we are actually focusing on being sustainable by getting rid of the stockpiles of previous garments. The fashion industry is in a constant state of trying to predict the future and staying on top of the newest things before they become old news. Humans have a significant impact on mass consumption, the environment, other people’s well-being. It took a whole pandemic for us to take a step back and realize how we were really living our lives. With this major halt in my life, I’m going to be honest, I finally realized I buy too much clothes. Not being able to just spend my time thrifting or going to the mall, I noticed exactly how much unnecessary consumption I am doing in my life. **I’m currently doing a massive closet cleanout on my Depop right now, just saying** I am one who loves to stay on trend and am always on the hunt to inspire new trends, but I finally stopped caring about my everyday fashion and started focusing more on the big picture. If we all were to consume less fast fashion, then we would all give people the opportunity to make more unique clothing that takes intricate detail and therefore workers can be paid adequately for their valuable time versus how many crop tops they can produce in an hour. 

As a digital retail major, I noticed how this whole situation has put the world under anti-virus lockdown and how retailers quickly shifted towards adapting to this new lifestyle. Masks and protective wear have become an increasingly popular demand and retailers have been taking advantage of people’s fears. I have seen a decline in new hand bags being released, but a skyrocketing introduction of designer face masks and even hand sanitizer. All of the basic necessities that we used to take advantage of are what people are trying to preserve the most. Frankly, the fashion industry is a bunch of selfish people with lots of different ideas all trying to be recognized as being original. I am amazed by how fast this industry is able to adapt to any obstacle that the world faces. A major trend we will definitely see in this year’s fashion week is the emphasis on digitalization and how technology has in a way saved our sanity. Technology was already a concept that has been manipulated with in the fashion industry but soon enough, we will see trends that we never thought were possible. When I was in New York, I visited the Artechhouse and that was one of the coolest things I have experienced. It was just a plain, white room with small projectors everywhere that illuminated the room with uniquely created digital designs that changed the room’s atmosphere and mood. I recently watched a fashion show that was inspired by a digital background like that and it was the coolest thing. In the future this will help minimize the waste of huge fashion show productions because this is an advanced way to engage your audience with the designer’s true vison. There have also been a few designers who had their shows planned out to be during this time, so it was a unique perspective to see designers twist their visions to be a completely virtual show. 

We can expect a huge, massive change in the way we used to view the fashion industry. Clothing will be made in a more thoughtful way and will take in consideration the potential actions of the future. In other words, articles of clothing will be more durable and made for multipurpose jobs instead of how we view it now as a one-time wear garment. This ideal came from the fact that we waste so much clothing and have grown to have this mentality of something being useless after you’ve been seen in it. One thing that has always bothered me and I genuinely do not understand why this is such a popular trend, but buying clothes that already look worn and dirty?? Golden Goose sneakers, someone explain to me why you are paying $500 plus dollars for brand new shoes that look like they are about to fall apart. Celebrities and fashion influences have the money to buy stuff like this and have no concern to how many times they actually wear it. Someone like me though, a college fashionista, wants to spend money on a luxury items that will be a classic and something that I don’t plan to wear just once. After being inside for so long and not cycling through my entire wardrobe, I’m predicting that we will see an increase in more basic necessity clothing made from textiles that are meant to last for a while and there will be an increase in the type of care designers put into the little details of their garments to last such as the back of the collar or the belt loops of your jeans. 

Major changes in the typical cycle of fashion have been massively impacted by this virus. Italian Vogue has had a blank cover for the first time in over 100 years. This is a huge deal because you always think about magazine cover girls and to be honest with the number of magazines I read, I never focus on the cover girl and I always forget. However, the impact of having no one headline an issue is much more memorable than anyone’s face. I think would be such a cool trend to start having coverless magazine and just focusing on the main message they are trying to convey instead of being drowned in a clouded haze of celebrity faces. I read an article about Bella Hadid still working from home, it explained how she was taking pictures of herself on her phone to be published in major editorials. Her stylists were virtually picking out her clothes and she was shooting herself and it really made me think about how we are really self-absorbed and constantly trying to share everything about our lives, but the reality of it is, who cares??

This self-isolation period has led to much needed time for humanity to self-reflect on their actions and has helped everyone prioritize what’s really important in the world. After having everything that is unessential stripped away in our lives, we all understand that can survive without all the extra added glamor of our society. This virus has really humanized us because no one is immune, despite being a celebrity or a homeless person, we are all equal humans and should be treated the same in life. I don’t want to start a whole rant on human equality, but I just want our society to recognize the fact that deep down we are all living on the same planet, breathing the same air. 

Dedicated to the one I Love

Hey baby kitties, I hope you all are doing amazing and learning to flourish during this really weird time. There is nothing I want more than being able to go back to a record store or a thrift shop. Meanwhile, we are all in the same boat, enjoying our time in the comfort of our homes, right. I was doing pretty good about being home, but I just miss my friends and being able to hang out with other people. 

Tomorrow is my best friend’s birthday and I’m kind of sad that I’m not able to hang out with her and that she has to be stuck at home. Honestly, I am so grateful I went to Tech for a little bit because I met my life long best friend. Emma is the most kind-hearted, funniest, self-assured woman I know. I am thankful for all the times she’s uplifted me when I’m down, serenaded me with her angelic voice or just talked to me on the phone for the entire day. It’s about to be a whole year after Emma convinced me to get our baby kitty tattoo. cI’ve been wanting to go to the Grand Canyon for so long and she’s the only one who’s down to get in the car right now. This crazy woman has pushed me in life to be a better version of myself and I can’t even imagine all of our insane future adventures. ❤ Love you Yemmi!!   

One new, fun, exciting thing in my life is that I’m learning French now!! How ironic that I already went to France and still just started learning. By the way, Rosetta Stone is having a special where students can get 3 months free, if you want to challenge yourself and learn a new language. The main reason I decided to start learning more French is because I was inspired after binge watching Making the Cut on Amazon with my mom. Let me tell you, this show is sensational. It is hosted by my all-time project runway forever legends Heidi Klum and Tim Gunn. The concept is to boost already established brands into a globally known fashion name. To be honest, I don’t understand any of the rules in the show because there aren’t really any?? The designers buy their fabric wherever and whenever they want, and they don’t really have a specific set budget. There is also not a consistent way of being eliminated, but I like how you never know where the next challenge will be. Plus, if you to know anything about me is that I love Chanel and my goal is to have insane Chanel blazers. Soon enough.. So, naturally I knew I would love this show whenever I realized my favorite 90s Chanel icon Naomi Campbell was a judge. The entire reason I was so inspired by this show was because I definitely feel that now I have exactly what it takes to build up a badass brand. I know how to sew and some people on this design show, had no clue to how sew their own clothes. Yes, the designers were given a seamstress and they just had to create a tech pack, which in the real world that’s how it’s like to actually manufacture clothing. In my opinion, I think it is just good to have a variety of skills if you’re going to start a clothing brand. You should be able to design and break down your clothes in order to be able to sew it on your own if you have to. 

While being at home alone with nothing to do I realized that I need to be open to all the different opportunities that can potentially come my way. My entire life I had this vision of living in New York but thinking about how close that time is going to be, I’m not closing out any other probable route. I’m realizing that I’m just not mean enough to live in the city. After going out to the beach alone for the past 2 weeks, I realized how much I actually love being at the beach and my body really cannot survive in the cold. So, of course I have to be at the beach in California doing something really dope in the LA fashion scene. This will finally be me and Kenny’s time flourish together and start our sublime fashion brand in California. Obviously, right now I don’t have all my ideas planned out because I thought of all this yesterday whenever I was talking to my dad. I was ranting about how I’m just in the phase of my like where I am experiencing everything and passing the time before having to live a true adult life. Not to say that I am not absolutely loving life at the moment, but I just want to be not in school anymore!

Speaking of online school I should say, I am sort of getting swamped with assignments that just creep up on me. I am tired of having so much more work than I ever did in real person class. Do not even get me started about the group assignments because I already was not the biggest fan of collaborative work, but never having the opportunity to meet up and still having to complete a presentation is difficult, but we all have to be tested in life. One of the assignments I had for my retail merchandising class was a research essay on US wholesale market centers. Of course, I studied everything about the most interesting wholesale market places in the United States. From New York to LA and Denver back to Dallas. If this virus would not have happened, I would have gotten the opportunity to work at the Dallas market center, but I will just have to wait until the world clears back up. I learned a lot about the California Market Center and that’s when I realized that that’s where I’m going to end up. I have a really good feeling about it and I’m waiting for life to fall into place. 

Disposition Daze

Imagine, we are handed a beautiful gift of basically time being stopped while the whole earth remains in a state of paused panic and distress. You are never given the chance to intentionally have nothing to do and just take time to collect yourself. Extra time to stay inside and enjoy the little things that we tend to forget in our fast-paced world. What would you do with your extra time??? Despite what you may be thinking, there is always a positive side to every negative situation. Let’s think about this whole coronavirus fiasco…

It is the most detrimental event to happen in my lifetime and this situation is something that I thought only really happened in the movies. I just sort of thought that in our day and age, we are in a way invincible to everything even though, we are only human. To be completely transparent, at first, I was really scared because this type of thing has never really happened, and I was more scared of the unknown versus what was happening in the present. In my opinion, I think that everyone was more worried about the indefinite outcome versus actually being worried about this virus potentially wiping out the entire population. I can understand why people were worried about supplies and excessively stocking up on toilet paper and cleaning products, but is it really necessary to be that greedy over essential products? Seriously, I just do not understand some people’s mentality. People’s true colors are revealed during a time in crisis. I have always just grown up wanting to help others out and making sure that everyone is doing okay instead of solely focusing on myself. I am very fortunate to be at home with my parents and I do not have to really worry about buying my own food right now, so I decided to give back to the people that really need help. Last week, I made around 30 sack lunches and a casserole to hand out to the homeless people downtown. I know that I am very blessed to be able to have a roof over my head, food in my pantry and enough in my savings to be able to stay home and save other people from potentially getting sick, but others are not as lucky. We need to really think about other’s livelihood and how shutting the whole world down can basically ruin someone’s current life track. This is why I think it is so valuable to be able to help others out during a time of such drastic need. Despite what you believe, karma is a real thing and whatever you do will eventually come back to you…

These past weeks of being isolated and completely left alone with my thoughts, it gave me a new perspective on the world. I’ve been home for however long we’ve been in quarantine and I never realized all the little things that we take for granted. Yes, I am grateful each day for the miniscule opportunities I take for granted such as being able to breathe clean air, drink pure water, listen to good music and dance around wherever I want. Our world basically changed overnight and life as we know it will never be the same. As a whole population, I’m sure there are some things we never thought would be taken away from us. I have not been able to hug my grandparents when I bring them dinner, can’t go to see the newest movie when it is released, unable to sit in church as a whole congregation and I didn’t realize how much I would miss seeing my friends and family in person every day. By having these thoughtless, everyday activities taken away from us, I think we have forgotten what is really important. The entire human race is in such a rush to get back to the quick paced speed of life, but we should use this time to really ponder about what things in life are worth rushing back to. 

Over the past three weeks, I’ve become a new woman…not exactly at all, but I know how to kind of bake. I’ve been taking total advantage about this entire situation and being home without one single responsibility. Okay, I’m lying I have school still, but I’ve been trying to just push through that. I haven’t written a blog in forever because I have been a sponge recently and have tried to just take in everything that is going on around me. The world has finally begun to relax, and it is so much easier to see what is actually going on without the clouded haze of excessive social media posting, intense societal outings and the immense pressure of always having to be doing something. I’ve finally had enough time to sit down and focus on the things that I’ve always wanted to do but claimed to never have time for. I have actually made a decent chunk in the book I’m currently reading, Little Women, and it feels so nice to be able to sit and drink some green tea and read a book without having to worry about doing something else. One thing I have never been really good at is cooking and I lowkey cannot stop eating sweets ever, so I decided to try baking. I’ve been looking up recipes and trying out new desserts. So far, I’ve made some cookies, an apple crisp, cheesecake and banana bread. Not to say I am an advanced pâtissier or anything like that, but I know how to bake now. I’ve also been journaling a lot more and setting time aside to write about not really what I’m doing each day (it’s basically the same thing), but I’ve focused more on what I am feeling and how this has affected me. There was a book that my cousin from California sent me whenever I graduated high school and I never had time to go over all of it. It is 52 lists of happiness and you’re supposed to do it each week, but I never really set aside the time for it each week. I am also so grateful that I brought my record player home because I have finally been able to listen to every single song on all my vinyls. I’ve been passing the days by worrying about having inner peach instead of being so anxious about going back into the world.

There is a great long list of positives I want to talk about that have come from this disaster, but I really want to go on a full tangent about them. Get ready to hear me go off about how amazing mother nature is doing, how the fashion industry is finally getting a break to catch up and people being able to connect with their family during this pandemic..

Don’t Cast, Don’t Complain

100 years ago, Women were granted the birthright opportunity of a man to vote. It is kind of hard to imagine life 100 years ago, since we are so technologically advanced our society can barely fathom the idea of a somewhat simple life. During the 1920s (and still to this day), women were not treated as equals to men. Society did not fully understand the innovative ideas, efficiency in situations, creative power and overall knowledge that the female population have always possessed. In the 1800s women were trapped inside their houses having the responsibility of doing the house’s domestic duties. Life dramatically changed for women after World War I, because this was the first opportunity we had to define our equality to the other sex by working the same jobs they used to and managing to take care of a family all at the same time. The 1920s is whenever society was conforming to modern ways and the “new woman” was born. We know that this was the time that women challenged the societal ‘norms’ and started dressing and acting for no one, but themselves. That is the kind of empowerment we need to see.

I think that our problem overtime is that the female gender has forgotten how many women went through a true suffrage in order for us to have the rights that we do today. Women need to be reminded of all the battles that our past sisters went through to get us to this exact moment. There were men who genuinely believed the only place a woman belonged was at home and they had absolutely no right to an education or to a reputable career. Many women had to wait to attend prestigious schools and were often not even recognized for their educational accomplishments. Fast forward a century and we still do not have a woman who has been in charge of the white house.

Contrary to popular belief, I actually care about people other than women and the main thing I want in our world is the dispersal of knowledge and recognition of equality throughout mankind. If you really think about It, our society is educated and cares about things that are oblivious to the intellectual growth that our community needs. People really have no idea what the process is to vote and how you can be an informed citizen to make lawful decisions based on your political views. One thing that really needs to be changed and implemented in our school system is knowledge on how to be an active, law abiding citizen who contributes to the good in society. In high school, they never taught me when to register to vote and which county you need to be registered in while also being on top of deadlines. Whenever I turned 18, immediately I wanted to exercise my right to vote and help be a part of national decisions. I registered to vote whenever I had just turned 18 because I never wanted to miss the opportunity to exercise my right that was not just given to me. At that time, the previous presidential election had already happened, and I still had to wait another 2 years to actually participate. To me, I have always looked forward to the opportunity to vote and create change, so I did my own research on ensuring I was registered in time and I had sufficient knowledge on everyone’s views in order to cast my vote for the best candidate.

There was a previous controversy about raising the voting age to 21 and my opinion is that would create unnecessary tension and will give young adults a reason to not be too concerned with the world around them. Young adults could potentially be the largest demographic of voters who can actually implement change. Dispute your political beliefs, your voice should be heard, and you have the right to express your values. Someone once told me that everyone is a democrat until they grow up and have their opinion. Personally, I am a democrat because their ideals and values represent what I stand for and I want to be a part of a party that actually cares about humanity. The only reason why more people are democrats when they are younger is because we do not have corporate jobs and we do not typically focus our energy on economics or taxation. People tend to be in the same political party as their parents because initially, they are our first exposure to anything relating to politics. My parents are both republicans and that is one million percent not in my beliefs, so I did my own research and picked out my desired political party. One thing that really shocked me when I voted the other day is how some people actually believe other individuals should not be given the same basic human rights as them. I had to vote on if everyone should have access to affordable healthcare, advanced education and if people should be given the choice of a free trial if they commit a crime. My mind was absolutely blown at the fact that people actually think other HUMANS do not deserve the same decent living rights that ‘upper class citizens’ are born with. Lowkey, I wanted to cry because I just did not understand why people do not want someone to have a good quality life.

Young adults have the power to change the world, so why don’t you exercise the right to vote? Now, it is too late to vote in the primary election in order to see who the candidates will be for the presidential election. However, if you are an informed citizen, emphasis on being informed, you don’t want to vote for the president of the United States blinded. You can go to your local voter’s administration office and register to vote in your county in order to be given the opportunity to have a say in the future of our government. If you do not exercise your right to vote, then you have absolutely no right to complain about issues going on in our government or the idiotically actions of our president. It cost absolutely no money to take time to go and vote for what you think is right, so why are you still waiting?